When you're the dumbest in the room

Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you feel like you're the least knowledgeable person in the room? I certainly did and sometimes still do. My well meaning friends say "Surely, it wasn't that bad", but as a person who actually was in those meetings, I can assure you that it definitely was. I have read advice that says "it does't have to be uncomfortable and you can navigate these situations with confidence". First, I am not sure how anyone can be comfortable when people are loudly expressing their irritation about your lack of expertise. Second, if I had confidence about a subject I know nothing about, that would indicate some serious lack of judgement. Such situations are unavoidably hard, but the question is: are you making it harder than it needs to be? So, what should you do when you find yourself academically out of your depth?

1. Separate emotions that are reactions to your current environment vs. inner-dialogue

Not all people are patient and kind at all times. Sometimes you will find yourself being belittled, shouted at or otherwise negatively addressed in meetings because some person had a really bad day. It is completely normal to be hurt and angry about it, and you should express those feelings in a safe and supportive environment. And whilst it is completely ok to be hurt if someone called your question "stupid", danger arises when we infer that a person thinks that we are stupid because of some awkward silence during an interaction. If we have a lot of insecurities we tend to have negativity bias and see every interaction with black tinted glasses, which is not accurate nor useful.

2. Question your own assumptions

Do you find yourself thinking that "I know nothing about science, because I don't know how to do (insert whatever you are struggling with right now)". Some of us might think that at some point we will learn enough to have a good understanding how to do things in academia, but higher you climb, more complex issues you will face. Try not to generalise and catastrophise when approaching yet another new topic, method or task. Hard work we put in when mastering a new area of expertise it is the price we pay for endless posibilities for the new and exciting research. Look back at what you have learned so far and make sure to celebrate all the things you already know!

3. You've made it!

Personal feelings of embarrassment and confusion can overshadow the fact that you made it in The Room Where It Happens (Hamilton, anyone?). It is a great privilege to be able to observe and learn from people who are so knowledgeable in the area of your interest, and it is up to you to make the best out of it. We are very emotionally complex beings, and it is possible to hold both negative and the positive experiences at the same time.

4. Knowledge vs. intelligence

Being the least knowledgable means you have a lot to learn and will need to work hard. Being least intelligent means you need to relax and enjoy your company. In either case, there's nothing wrong with you.

5. Read the room

The best way to learn is to ask questions and try to do it yourself, but it is important to read the room and know when and whom to ask. I would advise to take notes and listen carefully during a group meeting, and then approach a person afterwards for a personal meeting where you can take more time figuring things out.

Overall, being the least knowledgeable person in the room means an oportunity for professional growth. Learn, whether through online courses, workshops, or mentorship programs and continue studying, no matter your age or academic position. And remember to be approachable in environments with less experienced researchers who would appreciate a bit of your time and expertise, even if you're busy learning more complex things right now.